Monday, March 31, 2008
later going for overnight cycling with kawan.. wondering how long can she tahan.. haha.. yup.. finish another tear jerking drama which can compare with 1 litre of tears. The main actor Naohito Fujiki coinicidentally is also one of a actor in 1 litre of tears who act as a doctor. but this ending is a happy ending! not that bad.. unfortunately this kinda love doesn't exist in this kinda realistic world now. Title: 愛し君へ
Title (romaji): Itoshi Kimi e
Title (English): To the One I Love
Synopsis
Shiki Tomokawa is a new pediatrician who is enjoying her life. She falls in love with Shunsuke, a cameraman, who is destined to lose his eyesight in a couple of months. How will Shiki react when she finds out Shunsuke's destiny?
"To the One I Love" takes place in two contrasting cities—in the hustle and bustle of Tokyo, and in the peaceful city of Nagasaki, and depicts both the joys and sadness of life, and the interaction with family and friends.
so here's the question, have u ever ask yourself....
"What if the one you love were destined to lose his eyesight in three months? What would you like him to see last?"
"If you were him, what would you want to see last?"
3/31/2008 03:50:00 PM; undramatically.Y
Sunday, March 30, 2008
ytd the event at dxo somehow i think change place.. dotz.. even the bouncer dunno where the event shifted to.. watever!!! so head back to our usual spot. ministryofsound really enjoy myself ytd.. there were this 2 girl borrow lightstick from me again n again.. but didnt manage to get to know them much.. think they are malaysian.. haa.. just now while ironing my uniform.. was wondering.. as the iron is at my groin lvl.. will it kill sperm due to the thermal heat coming out from the iron?? LOL... sorry guys.. my quite smoking campaign have fail again.. haiz.. i also dunno wat to say to myself la..
3/30/2008 05:48:00 PM; undramatically.Y
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Came across these phrases for quite some time le.. forgot to blog it.. now i remember... haha.. its really meaningful.
"We cannot always build the future for our youth,
but we can build our youth for the future"
3/29/2008 04:39:00 PM; undramatically.Y
didnt manage to sleep well again... the symptom is back.. every 1 hour wake up 1 time... ahhh... i just wan a peaceful slp but just cant.. anyone can help me with this???
afternoon went to malaysia embassy to settle my malaysia citizenship.. the 3 rd trip there.. the way they do things really CMI la.. after which meet kawan for dinner at sizzler for salad bar.. came back home at night and went for a short run..
drinking my chivas now and listening to some old songs.. hmmm.. think of the past happy and sad days.. really miss a lot of my friends... hope all of them are doing fine! from primary, sec to poly.. and even bmt, sispec and astw.. life really past by very fast... my quit smoking campaign have come to the fifth day le.. so far so gd.. enduring hard. really kinda difficult but will do my best!
hope tonight can sleep well.........
3/29/2008 12:34:00 AM; undramatically.Y
Friday, March 28, 2008
finally graduate from platoon sergeant course le.. having a quite a long break. taking this time to rest, settle my citizenship and my uni thingy.. 2 more mths.. kinda look forward to it as some how i have a clearer direction of where i am going... the scholarship thing is gone.. i heard frm my friend al those top in their jc will apply.. so wat is certificate of merit to them when top students are applying.. sad.. my essay wasted. thanks kimchi for spending the time to help me sort my english out.. haha..
having difficulty in sleeping again for the past few day.. sian.. sian.. sian.......
3/28/2008 02:03:00 AM; undramatically.Y
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
hate those ppl who break their promise.. hmm... some ppl can really fake to be nice.. now i know wat a bastard he is although some ppl say hes a bitch but i dun believe. now i do.. FUCK YOU!
3/25/2008 05:06:00 PM; undramatically.Y
Sunday, March 23, 2008
enjoying this long weekend!! feeling back like a civilian and 2 more mths i can be a real civilian le! kiss goodbye to the evergreen forest.. haha..
ytd met kawan for lunch at bukit timah plaza.. had kimchi.. the kimchi soup there really taste delicious. u guys shld go try when u all are free.. met sya and david for a movie and dinner.. had carls jr and watched the empress and the warriors.
something to comment on the elevator created for the handicap using wheelchair. gv plaza workers didnt make use of it or other way maybe they dunno how to use which will be a really sad case. there were 2 ppl sitting on wheelchair watching this same movie with us. upon entrance to the cinema, as theres stairs AND the elevator. i tot i would get a chance to see how the elevator work. out of my surprise. those gv workers NEVER USE IT!!! they got the ppl to go from the back. WAT THE FUCK! isn't it obvious they dunno how to use. bloody hell........ think this point a lot of company have to take note ba. u built something for some uses BUT in the end. they just built it for show and score point? funny huh...
damn crap movie. it was meant to be a war movie but the whole movie emphasis more on the romance part more than the war part which i bloody dun like. give me WAR!!! the actress kelly chen and actor leon lai acting skill seriously cannot make it.. their facial expression really cannot make it man... donnie yen was 1 of the better 1. his acting still got room for improvement but when he get his sword and start fighting. WOAH! fantastic!!! after which went to carls jr for our dinner... really filling and delicious man.. haha..
so ya.. went to dxo but the event was postpone to next sat.. wasted 2 precious hours and they sat postpone. think is because of the accident that happen outside dxo ba.. so came the police officer checking ppl identity.. anyway. we still went in to dxo as it was free entry.. starting was rnb.. then came a fucking shit grp singing live band. really cannot take it la... wat they sing i only manage to hear 2 word cheebye whcih i think they are la. dxo ah dxo.. no wonder i heard frm all my friend is boring. up ur standard can.. lucky ard 1.30 am they leftr le and RNB IS BACK!! haha.. there were some b boyz there too but their skill compare to those at mos is really too far apart. mos is where all the pro dancer gather and there were 1 b-bot at dxo think hes really gd. although i not that good.. but i think his popping and locking seriously need more improvement as i have seen those boyz at mos doing so much smoother and nicer..
later gonna book in at 2100hrs.. srry guys.. cant go emr visit u all le.. forgive me k.. haha.. last week of my platoon sergeant course le.. finally all the suffering is going to be over soon. they say is tough. agreed but once is over, everything seems to be alrite..
3/23/2008 03:45:00 PM; undramatically.Y
Saturday, March 22, 2008
ytd was the end of my exercise.. so ya..
ITS TIME TO PARTY!!! but just too bad all my party mates were on duty except shaun and kimchi.. went to home club.. a lot of shufflers.. confirm pang go le will love it.. and all the girls there are of his liking de lo.. haha.. came home slept for 10 hours.. feel so refresh cos out in the 3 ay and night only manage to slept for 4 hours?
just now met kimchi for dinner at sixth avenue for dinner.. went to a cafe called "tea party" atmosphere over there is really great and comfortable.. the scone is also of the high standard, great taste.. reach home went for a run and ya.. thats all..
going D.X.O tonight. if u guys are free plz come! the more the merrier? hee
3/22/2008 12:17:00 AM; undramatically.Y
Sunday, March 16, 2008
ytd went with kawan kawan to have supper at bukit panjang.. initially plan to slack at tea party but i was delayed in camp and book out late.. the tom yum was quite normal normal la kim.. :P send her home and got a "lovely" present from her.. THANKS HOR!!
is finally going to be over soon.. i last exercise and i can return back to my unit in 2 weeks time.. had a wonderful 11 hour of sleep which i lack of. had been sleeping less than 5 hr everyday and redbull seems the only solution to keep me awake.. haha..
had a bad dream today... really feel the sour... haiz
next week pla to go club.. thurs,fri or sat? undecided.. maybe going dxo/dblo/ or my favourite ministry of sound.. haha..
soon.. it will be 2 more months to my ord date.. next week will send out my application for spf scholarship le.. wish me luck!!
my future seems so blank.. like dunno where to go.. is a risk. once took the wrong path and thats it.. so confuse now.. the only thing in my mind now is my future... life is so unpredictable.. every move we take maybe right or wrong. They say life is a gamble. True enough.. everything we do is a gamble so those who say u dun gamble. think again.. think i really wasted too much time.. too much....
3/16/2008 06:07:00 PM; undramatically.Y
Sunday, March 9, 2008
thing my body is tearing down.. it start showing le.. having headache ytd.. after mos tot was alrite le.. but headache come back again.. think is because of thinking too much.. think of my future.. going to ord le.. still like cant see wats ahead.. haiz
3/09/2008 06:41:00 PM; undramatically.Y
Sunday, March 2, 2008
3/02/2008 09:55:00 PM; undramatically.Y
The most touching drama i came across. I bet everyone who watch it will sure have tears rolling down their face.
Based on a true story..
This story is about a girl named Aya who suffered from an incurable disease, but lived life to the fullest until her death at 25. The original story is based on the diary Aya kept writing until she could no longer hold a pen. The book that later followed entitled “One Liter of Tears" has sold over 1.1 million copies.
Aya's only wish was “to live." By carefully depicting Aya's earnest desire to live, and the love of her family, friends, and lover, the drama, “One Litre of Tears" wishes to deliver her simple but strong message: “Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing."
Not something special, just a memory of a girl who was chosen by a special illness.
here are some touching phrase she wrote in her diary "One Litre of Tears"...
- if i were a flower, then now i'd be a seed, i shall treasure the beginning of my youth without regrets
- why did this disease choose me? i cannot carry it, if it's just the word "fate"
- if it weren't for this disease, i might even be in love i wan to cling to someone's arm so badly
- i'll no longer say i want to go back to those days. i will acknowledge who i am now and live on.
- that is why i will never ever run away. then, maybe someday...
- friends, i'm grateful for treating me as their equal. "ah, i 'm so glad" it is alright for me to think i wasn't always a burden to them, isn't it?
- if you look up at the sky when you fall, the vast blue sky is smiling at you today too. i am alive.
- humans are not to live in the past. it'll be fine if we do what we can now.
- the ma,wa,pa, and n lines are getting harder to enunciate. instead of forming sounds, only air escapes from my mouth, so nobody understands me. lately i talked to myself a lot. i used to hate it, but since it's a good enunciation practice, i'll keep doing it. it's no different than talking to somebody else.
- reality is too cruel and too brutal. it won't allow me to even have a dream. when i imagine the future, the tears come again.
- where should i go? even if there is no answer if i write, at least i'll feel better. i'm in need of a helping hand but i can neither see nor reach it. facing the darkness, all you hear are the echoes of my broken words....
the most touching phrase....
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mum,
dad,
doctor,
will i ever be able to marry?
i know
but even so..
someday, when that day comes,
I want to be surrounded by lots of flowers and sleep forever.>>
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letter to asou:
Dear Asou-kun,
I don't think i can say this face to face,
so i'm writing you a letter.
For always being by my side, Thank You.
To see that you've found your dream and seeing you alive and exhilarated makes me happy too.
Your future is infinitely expanding.
But, that's not the case for me.
The future that's left for me is a struggle to figure out how i'll go on living.
That's it.That's all there is.
There's nothing we can do about this gap between us.Everyday.
i'm fighting a battle with myself.The worrying and the suffering...
It's all i can do to suppress these feelings.
To Asou-kun... I'll be honest with youWhen i'm with you, it's painful.
Wanting to do this... and that...
How i'd be able to do them if only i were healthy...
I can't help but to think that way.
When i'm with you,I keep dreaming big dreams that could never come true.
Of course, it's not your fault.
But, I envy you so much, and i feel so pitiful.
I can't help... but feel even more miserable with myself.
If i'm like that, I can't go on living facing ahead...
For all you've done for me, Thank you.
For saying that you love me for who i am, Thank you.
For not being able to give you anything in return, I'm sorry.
i can't see you anymore
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The incurable disease is call spinocerebellar atrophy.
Spinocerebellar ataxia (SCA) is one of a group of genetic disorders characterized by slowly progressive incoordination of gait and often associated with poor coordination of hands, speech, and eye movements. Frequently, atrophy of the cerebellum occurs.
As with other forms of ataxia, SCA results in unsteady and clumsy motion of the body due to a failure of the fine coordination of muscle movements, along with other symptoms.
The symptoms of the condition vary with the specific type (there are several), and with the individual patient. Generally, a person with ataxia retains full mental capacity but may progressively lose physical control.
3/02/2008 09:25:00 PM; undramatically.Y
